Unresolved Grief

Albert an me

The Baggage Handler: Cast of Characters:
Unresolved grief and my brother Albert, who was killed at age 28.
Albert was 10 months older than I am, and the only stability in my life. He had tried to give me a happy childhood, which was a challenge in our chaotic household.
Unlike our parents, Albert never forgot my important days. When there wasn’t anything to eat at home, he always found
a way to provide. He was my HERO!
Losing someone you deeply love and cherish at a young age is terrifying. I got mad at God. Why with all the bad things happening in my home, did God take the only person who really cared about me?
When you lose an important and significant person in your life, your days become difficult and less meaningful, nothing seems to matter. Unresolved grief can change your judgment of life.
I was depressed for years after he was killed, then finally got the courage to deal with his loss. You can said I finally grew up. It was not easy, but it had to be done.
There will never be another connection like the one I had with my brother. But now I see life clearer and have more understanding. We have to keep surviving and learning until we reach our final destination and cross over and meet again. šŸ™‚
I’m dedicating my book The Baggage Handler to Albert, so he can know that no matter how bad it got for me and how often I got kicked to the ground, and how often I kicked myself to the ground, I kept getting up — just like he showed me when I was young.
He often said, “Jimbo, don’t ever quit!”
And I never will.

11 Responses to Unresolved Grief

  1. Thank you for following my blog. I am touched by yours and am pleased we’ve had the opportunity to share our experiences of grief.

  2. I read so much that hit home in an ugly and real and beautiful way. Please consider following my blog, I would be thrilled to have readers and feedback from people like you. I am struggling still with being completely open in the things I write about. I have such a story to tell, rags to riches, welfare teenage mom to wife of multimillionaire… I am almost afraid to tell my story. I am beginning to try and started my blog a few weeks ago. Thanks for sharing some of your story, the world needs to hear real stories.

  3. blwclark says:

    I really look forward to reading more of your pages. Thanks for checking mine out.

  4. I shed tears reading your about your loss šŸ˜¦ I have had my fair of losses, and my heart goes to you, but most importantly I give you a high five for never staying down!! I look forward to following your journey ….I am sure your brother is standing tall šŸ™‚

    ps: thank you for stopping by my blog

  5. mkazow says:

    We each experience grief on our own timeline. My depression didn’t hit until she had been gone for almost 6 months. I thought I was fine, but really I was just distracted. Never quit talking about him. Thank you so much for reading my blog.

  6. Sending you tiny seeds of light, from my heart to yours. You have been through such pain and hardship, yet you are full of light and you have many wonderful gifts. Thank you for sharing your stories and your thoughts with the world. The world needs more people like you.

  7. Shadow Girl says:

    I’m so sad & sorry for the loss of your brother. He sounds like an outstanding guy.
    I lost my mom when I was 13, and just buried my dad on Valentines Day.
    It may get a little easier every day, but, I’ll never lose the pain.

  8. keredim69 says:

    Thanks for visiting my blog. I just read this post and it moved me. Hang in there and good luck. I will be back for more.

  9. CJ says:

    I hope you will come by my blog sometime. You may find you are not alone…and we hope you’ll feel a little lighter when you leave there. We are terribly sorry about your brother…sometimes we find it tough to resist asking the ultimate question when these things happen…like “God, what were you doing? Why did you allow THIS?” But we truly believe that God must be weeping, as we do, feeling the sorrow of His children in times of tragedy…

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